FRIDAY, AUGUST 08, 2008 12:31 AM, CDT
Well i don't have much time to write so im going to make this short and sweet, DUB has been off gis darth vador mask since this morning and his SAT's are remaining at 100% with the blow by only.... YESSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!
I dont even know what to say. im sooo happy, it was a fluid overload. His med have been significantly decreased and the machine has pumped up his lungs back to normal again, he is sleeping like an angel in my arms and if the night goes well we be "BACK TO ROOM" as dub would say, by tommorrow in the day time..... I really lost it there seeing him in that mask. I cried all day and couldn't even be here I was so scared.This kid is such a champ words can't even discribe how many times over the past few months that he has been scaring me... Im on edge like im living in a suspense thriller and the movie just wont end, you dont want to watch but you cant not watch, awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Maybe everyones prayers are working, maybe miracles do happen. My husband is angry, he has his theroys (well they are pretty accurate ones) as to why this happened.. Im not going to slag the hospital we are in but "the best hospital" has given up on DUB and I think they did the second there protocal didn't work.. The way the doctors talk to me and look at me is like they don't have one ounce of hope. It sucks, its to late to go find somewhere that does, but they don't know my DUB. ALL the speeches ive gooten over the past few months are all v ery bad. No matter what they say to me i just dont believe it. I cant.. I WONT........ LOOK AT THAT PICTURE I POSTED DOES THAT LOOK LIKE A KID WHO GIVES UP..............
DUB.......
MOMMYS SORRY FOR BEING SCARED
MOMMYS SORRY FOR CRYING NIGHT
MOMMYS SORRY FOR BEING SOO TIRED
MOMMYS SORRY FOR YELLING AT DADDY
MOMMYS SORRY FOR SHOWING FEAR
MOMMY HAS BEEN STRONG FOR SO LONG
IT MAKES ME SAD TO SEE YOU SAD
ALL I EVER WANT IS FOR YOU TO FEEL BETTER
AND WHEN YOU FEEL PAIN I DO TOO
BUT I PROMISE I WILL TRY FROM NOW ON NEVER TO SHOW YOU..........................
I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH DUB
XOXOXO,
MOMMY