I CRY ALONE

Nobody can help me, I am all alone,
Noone really knows what to say, so I don't answer the phone.

Noone really phones me anyway, they just can't bear the pain,
Losing a child is the worst thing ever and its driving me insane.

Noone can look me in the eyes, or tell me it's ok..
Because they know thats just a lie and they go about their day.

My heart and soul is broken and my eyes are full of tears,
Noone knows this pain I feel and it will be there for years and years.

I can't sleep at night, I cry all day thinking of his beautiful face,
but yet he won't come in my dreams or give me a sign to tell me he's in a better place.

Will I ever feel normal again, or stop blaming myself?
No Doctor can help me and the pills don't even help.

Nobody can help me, I am all alone,
I have no friends, no place to go, no place to call my home.

Home is where the heart is, well wheres home is your hearts broken?
All I have is what I write and these word that I have spoken.

We gave up everything to fix our son and it did not work,
Now all I have is horrific images of watching him die, in my head these memories just lurk.

GO AWAY VOICES, GO AWAY IMAGES, SOMEONE GIVE THE THE STREGNTH TO LIVE,
I have another son who needs me I have to find some love to give.

I guess I can't depend on anyone to guide me through this and show me how.
I just thought maybe someone out there would know the answer, WHY MY BABY? WHY NOW?


September 6th 2008
Codi Dornan