TUESDAY, AUGUST 26, 2008 03:04 AM, CDT
its been a little over a week and the service is over. It went well, it was very nice. Very sad. Im sad. Now that everyone is gone, its sunk in. My baby;s gone. He's really gone. We went to the funeral home today and picked up his ashes. I freaked. I lost it. Mt husbund bougt 10 little earns to spread acroos the world. One big one to keep in our house and I have a star around my neck filled with DUB;s ashes so he will always be with me. I miss him so much Im trying so hard to make sense of it all. And I still cant. I dont believe it was his time. I was robbed of my baby. I miss his smell and sleeping with him. I sleep with red blanket everynight and havent washed it. It smells like him. Today we went to long beach, NY at sunset with JJ, SAMMON, HARLEY, ME, RYAN AND LEANNE our cousins and we lit candles and played house music and went in the ocean, spread some ashes and said goodbye sweet DUB...your in your favorite place now..The ocean..... It was amazing. I love him..JUMA HONEY...... then me and Harley went ourselves and took another earn, tossed it in so it would sink, and threw away our past problems.. not dub, but our issues with eachother, were starting over, for DUB and Jah... DUB WAS always so happy to see mommy, daddy together that we have to maintain his legacy. He saved our lives and made us the people we are today and for that I owe him everything... He is my angel and I have him around my neck. I love him and he will always be my number 1.. I will try to contenue to write. As I slowly try to figure out what the purpous of all this has been. I will tell you one thing I do not think he is in a better place, because there was no better place for him then there was with me in my arms. No matter where he is..... He is my heart, even though it is broken, hopefully he will keep it working for me.... JJ is the only thing keeping me going right now. If I didn't have him I would have died in that hospital bed with DUB, just to be with him forever.. ONE DAY MOMMY'S COMMING BABY ONE DAY...
WE LOVE YOU DUB
HARLEY BRUCE DORNAN JR
JULY 1 2005 - AUG 14TH 2008
YOU WERE TO GOOD FOR THIS EARTH
WTF is going on
17 years ago
1 comment:
Hi Codi,
It's unimaginable what you've been through and are still going through. I've been following your sites for a few months now and was so sad to learn Dub passed away. I think about you often and have written about you on my blog. I've started to write you a few times and then deleted it because nothing seemed right or enough to say. Besides telling you how deeply sorry I am for you and Harley and JJ and what you are going through I'll also say that I will continue to follow your blog in support. I hug my daughter a little tighter now because of you. So thank you for that. Looking forward to your book and Harley's clothing line.
Hang in there.
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