LIFE AFTER DEATH?????

Does that even exist, well I mean for me.. I cant figure out the real mening behind that but.. There is life after losing a child it just takes time.. its been 3 months and not a moment goes by I dont think of him.. Instead of blogging during a deep phase of writers block im going through alot of different emotions. My husband is sad and sick.. My little JJ is walking now and saving me every day from my voices and devistations and well Im working on my book. EDITING.. SUXXXXX. But I am trying to stay determined. Its hard to keep motavated when life is so wierd. So on and off. One day at a time. Hot and COLD. Struggling to find the words to explain he true feelings in my heart are gutwrenching. SO on that note maybe not such a good blog today.. Well hey tommorrow is another day. Without my sweet DUB.. Without a dream of his face. Or the pitter patter of his feet around the house. But JJ is walking around now and waking up to him is a true joy, a saving grace... He truly is a wonderful little boy... BUT I STILL WANNA SCREAM FUCK YOU LEUKEMIA......... OK im getting wierd.. gonna sign off now...

xoxo

codi